Friday, October 28, 2016

Psalm 88 Separated From God To Witnesses For Jesus ( A Personal Testimony )

Daily Bible Study for Friday October 28, 2016


By: Hanny Lynn Stearns



Fish N Loaves Ministries, Inc.



“Multiplying God’s Word Around The Globe”

Chapter Reading for Today: Please read in your Bible before proceeding. Note that most translations are considered paraphrases. The Young’s Literal Translation provides a more accurate translation since he is the one who authored a concordance. Others are helpful for seeing a different perspective, but we cannot always depend on their wording. I hope this is helpful to you. If you are studying in another version, that is fine. I am studying from the KJV, but for the purpose of this study, I will keep it with the New King James Version.
One final note: I will put the scripture in italics to differentiate from my own writing. I am adding red to the letters when it is Jesus talking – just like the Bible. Thank you.

Bible Gateway Verse of the Day

1 Peter 1:24-25

because “All flesh is as grass, And all the glory of man as the flower of the grass. The grass withers, and its flower falls away, But the word of the Lord endures forever.” Now this is the word which by the gospel was preached to you.
Psalm 88
Separated from God to Witnesses for Jesus
The more I read this Psalm the more I began to say, “That’s me! I’ve been there. I did that. This is a testimony of my life right here in the agonizing cries of today’s chapter. Friends, I have experienced all of these things. Join me as the Lord directs me to be a witness of how He can take us from total darkness to His wonderful light, putting the enemy under our feet! Let’s pray…
Heavenly Father:
Thank You for all You have done for me through Your Son Jesus Christ! If it had not been for You Lord, I would be in the place of the dead right now. In the grave my mouth would have been closed forever. I would not be able to stand here, as Your victorious child to declare Your praises in the land of the living! Father, I ask You to anoint every word in this message. Give me the utterance to speak as You direct me. Open the eyes of the blind, and set the captives free Lord. You said in Your word in Mark 16:17-18 that these signs would follow them who believe…
And these signs will follow those who believe: In My name they will cast out demons; they will speak with new tongues; 18 they will take up serpents; and if they drink anything deadly, it will by no means hurt them; they will lay hands on the sick, and they will recover.”
Father, just today we witnessed a man who looked like he was about to die get revived and healed. They called 911, but when Your child prayed for him, he was miraculously healed! Hallelujah! Lord, use my testimony to show this world how powerful, merciful and full of loving kindness You really are. Open their spiritual eyes, ears and hearts to receive a message of hope regardless of what is going on in their lives. Bring the hurting and desperate souls from all over the globe to hear this message. Cause them to turn back to You if they have wandered. Grant them repentance to life that You may be glorified in them throughout the earth. As always Father, we make it our goal to be doers of Your holy and powerful word, and not just forgetful hearers. Thank You for letting us know in Your word that no word that proceeds from Your mouth will return to You without accomplishing what You sent it forth to do according to Isaiah 55:11. Thank You Lord – You always watch over it and perform it in our lives when we place our faith on it and do what it says. Bring glory to Yourself around our world in this lesson today. We thank You for the answers, as we believe we receive them right now in the mighty name of Jesus – the name above all names! Amen.
I guess you could say it’s a lot like Paul’s calling – what the Lord wants me to do. Paul was going from town to town telling others about his life before his encounter with Jesus, and what happened afterward. Here is what Jesus said about being a witness and a testimony…
John 5:31-47
31 “If I bear witness of Myself, My witness is not true. 32 There is another who bears witness of Me, and I know that the witness which He witnesses of Me is true. 33 You have sent to John, and he has borne witness to the truth. 34 Yet I do not receive testimony from man, but I say these things that you may be saved. 35 He was the burning and shining lamp, and you were willing for a time to rejoice in his light. 36 But I have a greater witness than John’s; for the works which the Father has given Me to finish—the very works that I do—bear witness of Me, that the Father has sent Me. 37 And the Father Himself, who sent Me, has testified of Me. You have neither heard His voice at any time, nor seen His form. 38 But you do not have His word abiding in you, because whom He sent, Him you do not believe. 39 You search the Scriptures, for in them you think you have eternal life; and these are they which testify of Me. 40 But you are not willing to come to Me that you may have life.
41 “I do not receive honor from men. 42 But I know you, that you do not have the love of God in you. 43 I have come in My Father’s name, and you do not receive Me; if another comes in his own name, him you will receive. 44 How can you believe, who receive honor from one another, and do not seek the honor that comes from the only God? 45 Do not think that I shall accuse you to the Father; there is one who accuses you—Moses, in whom you trust. 46 For if you believed Moses, you would believe Me; for he wrote about Me. 47 But if you do not believe his writings, how will you believe My words?”
Jesus Himself came to be a witness to this world. The Father had testified openly about Him when His audible voice resounded with these words…
Mark 9:7
And a cloud came and overshadowed them; and a voice came out of the cloud, saying, “This is My beloved Son. Hear Him!”
This passage shows not one, not two or three, but four witnesses to whom Jesus is and what His purpose on the earth was. The Bible says this about the witness…
Matthew 18:16
But if he will not hear, take with you one or two more, that ‘by the mouth of two or three witnesses every word may be established.’
Jesus made sure that what people heard and saw was witnessed by many. No one can refute what God has done through His Son Jesus Christ. There were many witnesses who saw it all unfold right before their very eyes. Anyone who refuses to believe in Jesus and the words of His mouth are doing it because they want to refuse Him. It is not because there is no proof. How many know that when there is a witness in a trial to something that happened, it stands before the judge as valid? Why? Because they actually saw what happened. The same thing applies to Jesus. Many saw the miracles, signs and wonders that He performed under the power of the Holy Spirit. He didn’t do them acting with all the power of God on His own.
Remember, He was just a man. But, He was baptized with the Holy Spirit and fire – like every believer should be. What He did, He did in obedience to what the Father showed Him to do. The power that caused it to happen was the power of the Holy Spirit. There were hundreds of witnesses to these events. Nobody can tell Peter, Paul or John that what they saw didn’t really happen, or that it was all in their minds. They saw it for themselves. That’s why a witness is so powerful. What we see happen with our own eyes; what we experience in our own lives is reality. It is not made-up. It is a very real experience. Jesus had plenty of witnesses to what His purpose was – so did Paul.
There were people who knew Paul before he became Paul. They knew the Saul who went about persecuting anyone who was following after Jesus. Let’s look closer…
Acts 9:22
Then Saul, still breathing threats and murder against the disciples of the Lord, went to the high priest and asked letters from him to the synagogues of Damascus, so that if he found any who were of the Way, whether men or women, he might bring them bound to Jerusalem.
As he journeyed he came near Damascus, and suddenly a light shone around him from heaven. Then he fell to the ground, and heard a voice saying to him, “Saul, Saul, why are you persecuting Me?”
And he said, “Who are You, Lord?”
Then the Lord said, “I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting. It is hard for you to kick against the goads.”
So he, trembling and astonished, said, “Lord, what do You want me to do?”
Then the Lord said to him, “Arise and go into the city, and you will be told what you must do.”
And the men who journeyed with him stood speechless, hearing a voice but seeing no one. Then Saul arose from the ground, and when his eyes were opened he saw no one. But they led him by the hand and brought him into Damascus. And he was three days without sight, and neither ate nor drank.
10 Now there was a certain disciple at Damascus named Ananias; and to him the Lord said in a vision, “Ananias.”
And he said, “Here I am, Lord.”
11 So the Lord said to him, “Arise and go to the street called Straight, and inquire at the house of Judas for one called Saul of Tarsus, for behold, he is praying. 12 And in a vision he has seen a man named Ananias coming in and putting his hand on him, so that he might receive his sight.”
13 Then Ananias answered, “Lord, I have heard from many about this man, how much harm he has done to Your saints in Jerusalem. 14 And here he has authority from the chief priests to bind all who call on Your name.”
15 But the Lord said to him, “Go, for he is a chosen vessel of Mine to bear My name before Gentiles, kings, and the children of Israel. 16 For I will show him how many things he must suffer for My name’s sake.”
17 And Ananias went his way and entered the house; and laying his hands on him he said, “Brother Saul, the Lord Jesus, who appeared to you on the road as you came, has sent me that you may receive your sight and be filled with the Holy Spirit.”18 Immediately there fell from his eyes something like scales, and he received his sight at once; and he arose and was baptized.
19 So when he had received food, he was strengthened. Then Saul spent some days with the disciples at Damascus.
20 Immediately he preached the Christ in the synagogues, that He is the Son of God.
21 Then all who heard were amazed, and said, “Is this not he who destroyed those who called on this name in Jerusalem, and has come here for that purpose, so that he might bring them bound to the chief priests?”
22 But Saul increased all the more in strength, and confounded the Jews who dwelt in Damascus, proving that this Jesus is the Christ.
When we get to heaven, we will see Paul. And nobody could ever tell him that what he experienced was not real. Look at what he preached again and again to anyone who the Lord would grant him audience…
Acts 22:1-21
22 “Brethren and fathers, hear my defense before you now.” And when they heard that he spoke to them in the Hebrew language, they kept all the more silent.
Then he said: “I am indeed a Jew, born in Tarsus of Cilicia, but brought up in this city at the feet of Gamaliel, taught according to the strictness of our fathers’ law, and was zealous toward God as you all are today. I persecuted this Way to the death, binding and delivering into prisons both men and women, as also the high priest bears me witness, and all the council of the elders, from whom I also received letters to the brethren, and went to Damascus to bring in chains even those who were there to Jerusalem to be punished.
“Now it happened, as I journeyed and came near Damascus at about noon, suddenly a great light from heaven shone around me. And I fell to the ground and heard a voice saying to me, ‘Saul, Saul, why are you persecuting Me?’ So I answered, ‘Who are You, Lord?’ And He said to me, ‘I am Jesus of Nazareth, whom you are persecuting.’
“And those who were with me indeed saw the light and were afraid, but they did not hear the voice of Him who spoke to me.10 So I said, ‘What shall I do, Lord?’ And the Lord said to me, ‘Arise and go into Damascus, and there you will be told all things which are appointed for you to do.’ 11 And since I could not see for the glory of that light, being led by the hand of those who were with me, I came into Damascus.
12 “Then a certain Ananias, a devout man according to the law, having a good testimony with all the Jews who dwelt there,13 came to me; and he stood and said to me, ‘Brother Saul, receive your sight.’ And at that same hour I looked up at him. 14 Then he said, ‘The God of our fathers has chosen you that you should know His will, and see the Just One, and hear the voice of His mouth. 15 For you will be His witness to all men of what you have seen and heard. 16 And now why are you waiting? Arise and be baptized, and wash away your sins, calling on the name of the Lord.’
17 “Now it happened, when I returned to Jerusalem and was praying in the temple, that I was in a trance 18 and saw Him saying to me, ‘Make haste and get out of Jerusalem quickly, for they will not receive your testimony concerning Me.’ 19 So I said, ‘Lord, they know that in every synagogue I imprisoned and beat those who believe on You. 20 And when the blood of Your martyr Stephen was shed, I also was standing by consenting to his death, and guarding the clothes of those who were killing him.’ 21 Then He said to me, ‘Depart, for I will send you far from here to the Gentiles.’”
Friends, when someone tells us about what they experienced personally with Jesus, we would do well to pay attention. He uses every day people like you and me to be a witness to this world full of perishing souls. So how could I relate so well to this chapter? In every single verse I read, my mind went back to late 2003 and early 2004 when I had hit the rock bottom of all time in my life. I had messed up so bad that I became certain there was no way back from the darkness into the light. It was the absolute, hands down, worst part of my experience on this earth – like a living hell.
Our Psalmist today started out by saying that he was going to the Lord in prayer. In fact, throughout the chapter, we see him mention crying out to God in prayer in five different places. The man was seeking God – that was the good part. As soon as we get to verse 2, we see that his life was filled with trouble. He was near death. He felt separated from God according to these verses. Why do you suppose he was in this situation to begin with? We are not given any details, but sin is what gets a person into such a state, plain and simple.
When I went through my crisis back in 2003-2004, that was exactly where I was at. I was walking in total darkness. I had left my husband for a strange man because I thought I could find the love I never had in the arms of someone else after almost 22 years of marriage. It was the worst decision I ever made in my adult life. What I walked away from was two beautiful daughters who were in the 11th and 12th grades of high school at the time.
We had a large beautiful home, with a vacation home in northern Michigan. We had a very busy, active life. The girls were involved in music, dance and cheerleading. I had gone back to work and had a wonderful career in a brokerage firm working with employment groups for their employee benefits. I made good money. But my husband and I sure needed improvement in our marriage. I could say a lot here about our issues, but I will skip that part. It really isn’t necessary. What is important to know is that as best he knew how, he loved me. We did a lot of fun things together which was the only thing that really kept us together for as long as we were – 24 years altogether.
Leaving him, I thought the kids would come with me. I had been very close to my daughters and was involved in everything they had going on. I love them deeply, but the day I walked out and did what I did, I was saying with my actions that I did not really love them. The truth is that I never knew how to love anyone correctly because I had never received the right kind of love. We can’t give away what we do not have. 
I hurt them all terribly. What I walked away from would seem like the difference between heaven and hell. Our marriage could have been improved on. God was showing me all kinds of signs that I should not go. He spoke through people and circumstances to try to stop me, but I was determined to “do it my way.” And when I did, what little relationship I had with the Lord at that point came to a screeching halt! The lights grew dim.
From the time I left in March 2003, things went from bad to worse. Like our Psalmist writes, loved ones were taken from his life. And they were taken from mine. My children, our family, my work peers, friends and neighbors all stood in shock at what I had done. No one could believe I could do such a thing and the girls wanted nothing to do with me. They were devastated. To them I might as well have just died in a sudden unexpected car crash. And that is exactly what happened. I had an emotional crash that stunned my world – myself included. Once I got into the mess, I was like a lost, wounded puppy. I didn’t know where to turn and I could find no easy answers to get out of it.
The Psalmist today talks about his vision failing. At first I looked at this in the physical sense. But what came to me was this: I had lost sight of reality. I could not see things for what they were. I had walked into the arms of a stranger who literally was overcome with the devil. His life had gone sour with his wife passing away, and things went from bad to worse for him. And once we got together, God completely removed His blessings from my life. 
I was like a fish out of water and it was terribly dry and dark. Everywhere I turned there was darkness and confusion. My behavior reverted back to that of a rebellious 18-year-old. I started smoking again after 17 years away from cigarettes, and I started drinking and using prescription pain killers. I went right back to the behavior that God had rescued me from when I was 20 years old.
By the end of 2003, I was homeless and at my all-time bottom. In my mind, there was nowhere to turn. By April of 2004, after weeks of careful planning, I attempted to take my own life. Taking more than enough powerful painkillers, I came within minutes of taking my last breath. I was rushed unconscious in an advanced life support vehicle to the critical care unit of the nearest hospital where I remained in a coma for 18 hours of total darkness.  Upon waking, I was very angry that I had survived the incident. I had not planned it that way. I asked God why I was still alive after having made a mess of everything. It would take me another year and a half to discover that answer.
I started trying to survive and do what I could to put my life back together; but as long as I was with the new husband, things continued to get worse. By the end of the year in 2004 I made a decision out loud, saying, “We have to get back to God.” I started going to churches and seeking help. I didn’t really know what to do. At that point I had never really had an intimate relationship with Jesus. I did not know how to cry out to Him like I should have known by then. I had spent years in church and listened to countless hours of Christian radio. But I was so blinded back then.
I could relate to the chapter today when it talked about being afflicted. While I was going through all of this, I was having all kinds of sickness and various symptoms in my body. I was not eating right because I had no money, often times resorting to the dollar menu at McDonald’s or eating food that was handed to us by a church or local charity – all of it very unhealthy stuff. But when one is hungry enough, they will eat anything that can get.
The Lord saw my efforts to get back to Him. I started giving money to Him, even if it was from a $6 check I received in the mail. I was tithing, like the Bible tells us to so we can invite God into the middle of our finances. One time someone had given me $20, and I gave it all to the Lord by mailing it to the 700 Club. Something in me was willing to give Him all I had and I have never regretted doing that since.
The reason I was so ill is because I was living in sin. I had run from God. I had hurt a lot of people. I had messed up my finances and my credit. I did so many things wrong that there wouldn’t be enough room to write it all on paper. The wrath of God – like today’s illustration, was heavy upon me.  I was suffering the consequences for my evil and childish behavior. God will not just reach down and bless us anyway when we are walking in sin. Like the Psalmist said, it felt like the Lord had completely turned away from me.
But the amazing thing was, that when I started trying to seek Him again in 2004, He honored me. How so? He sent angels to help. He made sure I had a place to stay even though I was homeless. He made sure I could get around. He made sure I never went hungry. He sent people across my path to speak His word to me. He kept leading me step by painful step closer and closer to where He wanted me to get.
One day in July of 2005, He had a manger of mine come and tell me about a certain church. As the Lord would have it, I was just led to go there and check it out one Sunday. Once I walked in, I just sat in the back and listened while I cried and cried. I really liked the place. I kept going back. By October of 2005, the pastor had started preaching a message about the Ten Commandments and by the second week, when we got to the part that says we should not have any idols in our lives, I felt convicted. 
I knew that I had many idols. My daughters, food, etc. There were so many things in my life that I had placed in front of God. By the time I got home from church that night I just dropped to my knees beside the bed on the floor and cried out to God. All those years I had gone to church, I had never once gotten on my knees privately before Him and confessed any sins to Him.
This particular night, October 1, 2005 was different. I knew I had made a complete mess of not only my life, but the lives of those I had claimed to love the most – my daughters. All I could say to God was this: “Oh God, I’m a mess. Will You fix me?” Friends, I have to tell you that from that day forward, my life has never been the same. I didn’t hear anything that night. I didn’t see anything unusual. I just laid down and went to sleep. But the next day and in the days that followed there was something very different. 
I was more excited about Jesus than I had ever been. I continued going to church and sat in the second row on the end with Bible and pen in hand, ready to take notes, hanging on to every word from my beloved pastor’s mouth. His feet will always be beautiful to me. He brought me the good news that literally changed my life!
I learned things about God and the Bible I had never heard in 24 years of going to a denominational church! God knew all of this going to happen of course. He began to open my spiritual eyes, just a little at a time. Like Saul on the road to Damascus, too much light at once would have blinded me. I needed to have them opened at the right time so I could clearly see the things of God. Little by little, things in my life began to change. 
It took another several months, but I finally left the “new husband” for good. And the minute I did, it was as if the floodgates of heaven opened up on me. The devil was trying his hardest to destroy me, but God, in His unending mercy didn’t let him. Glory to His name forever!!!!! May I never forget what the Lord has done for me! He is so good! There is no love like the love of God!
With everyone I loved and cared for stripped away from my life, I was now walking alone with Jesus. He was all I had, but He was and is more than enough. I discovered what a friend I have in Jesus. He loved me when no one else would. He prayed for me when no one else cared. He fed me and He comforted me. He dried my floods of tears. He healed my broken heart. He corrected me and chastened me as a good father does his son. 
He taught me great and unsearchable things I had never known and He still does. He kept leading me along a path of recovery and healing such as I could never have imagined. I was burdened with food addiction, obsessive compulsive behavior, sexual issues, and a lot of other abnormal things that are hidden deep in the recesses of a wounded soul. But God knows the depths of our heart, yet He loves us the same.
Moving me to Florida in 2007 was the best thing that ever happened to me after my surrender to Him. I had to leave the daughters who weren’t speaking to me and all the chaos behind to follow Jesus. The minute I crossed the Florida state line, the blessings just started flowing and have not stopped since. I still struggled hard (unnecessarily at that) with the food addiction. The Lord has worked hard on getting me healed of that. 
Today I can report that He has brought me to a new level of healing and victory in that area of my life – praise His name forever! My physical weight is the lowest it has been since I was in my twenties. I am 60 right now. But the even greater part is that the spiritual weight has been lifted. How many know that the anointing breaks the yoke and removes every burden? Hallelujah!
God has placed an anointing on my life to preach the good news to the poor; I myself having been poor and am now made rich through Jesus Christ – hallelujah! I was called before I was born to come through all of that junk so God could raise me up and set me as a sign and a wonder to this hurting world. He called me to preach and teach His word to folks like you. He has called me to be a witness - like our Master Jesus. We are to become like the Master. He was a witness – so am I. I know what God has done for me. What has He done for you?
The Lord brought the daughters back into my life along with four beautiful grandchildren! He brought me a godly husband who is the most amazing man I have ever met on the planet. Through him, the Lord has shown me in the flesh what real love looks like in a marriage. The Lord has helped me to understand and receive His love better by using my precious husband. He has truly given me a good gift in him. Then, the Lord brought us an anointed puppy. This particular animal, though tiny and so adorable, is used by God as a ministering spirit to do great big things for Denny and me, along with others who come our way. You would stand amazed at God if I had the time and space to tell what we have seen God do through our little Jesse.
Signs, wonders and miracles are happening at our house every single day. This is not an exaggeration friends. It is really happening. I marvel at what the Lord does around here every day as He uses me to preach His word to the world. He is reaching people all over this globe even as I type this. Now He is starting a brand-new ministry for us to work, called “Fish N Loaves Ministries, Inc.” The purpose of this ministry is to preach and teach His word all over the world and to help build and equip churches and other ministries. We are so excited. The Almighty has done great things for us, most certainly for us it is truly marvelous in our eyes.
As we end this study on the sad but true verses of Psalm 88, we know that we have a God is heaven who is bigger than our worst mistakes. We have a Savior who will be our Friend when no one else really seems to care. We have a Comforter and Healer who can satisfy our longing souls, and fill our houses with wealth and riches of various kinds. No good thing does He withhold from those who walk uprightly in Him. God is a giver – the greatest one of all. He wants to shower people with His blessings. 
But there are rules. We have to do things His way. And can I tell you, I have been extremely stubborn. Even after He had done marvelous and amazing things for me, I was still kicking and screaming “so to speak” about giving certain things up in my life. I am not happy to say this but it’s true. Over time however, He has turned my heart more and more through His word and His Spirit to the things that matter most to Him. Now I no longer count Hanny’s life drear to myself…
Galatians 2:20
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
Dear friends, no matter where you stand right this minute in your relationship with Jesus, you can make a decision right now that will change your life forever! I assure from my personal experiences (I am a witness!) that you will not regret it. The kind of sufferings that we endure as good soldiers for Jesus are far better than enduring hardship that is birthed from sin. 
There is no comparison between the ways of God and the misery that this world will surely dish up for us. I would never want to go back to that hellish life I was living back then. I finally found the love I have been looking for. I have finally found a True Friend in Jesus. Today, you can ask Him to be yours too.

Let’s pray…

Heavenly Father:

Thank You for sending me a True Friend in Jesus! Father, I ask You to forgive me for the things in my life right now that I know are not pleasing to You. Help me to have the spiritual vision to see things the way they truly are. Open my eyes to see Your light as You see fit. Lord I want to be healed, comforted and set free of every yoke and burden, just like You did for Hanny. I am calling on You now Lord. Forgive me, heal me and make me a witness too. I ask this in faith and I believe I received my forgiveness through Jesus Christ. Thank You Lord for loving me through the worst of things. In Jesus name. Amen.

There are three main points to consider from today’s study…

Separation from God brings great darkness
Going to God in prayer is the first step to getting back to Him
The Lord wants you to be His witnesses too

Questions:

What does being a witness mean?

What is so powerful about a testimony?

What stood out the most to you in this chapter? Why?

In what way is the Lord changing your thinking after this lesson?

Who can you share this study with?

Will you turn to Jesus to find your True Best Friend and become a witness for Him?

And God Said… You fill in the blanks.

Acts 1:8
 But you shall receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you; and you shall be witnesses to Me in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the end of the earth.”




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